"I have been civil and continue to smile and remain as upbeat as I can around her. We had an agreement to go to counseling once per month and I was trying to find out when in July we would go. That is all."
Was it a written agreement? I know you have been civil.
"I am going dark. My son is my priority. I have a lawyer already but only as a defensive measure in response to the papers I know are coming."
No forward movement on that until you get those papers!
"I don't believe I'm acting or sounding crazy."
I would imagine that there are a few people here that think you sound a bit crazy. I am one of them. I know crazy when I see it. You can't hide it! Well you can if you stop posting.. then I just assume you went crazy.
"I'm actually more calm and focused now than I have been in quite some time."
I will take that with a grain of salt.
Because...
"I'm just emotionally drained and tired of being beaten down."
How can you be more calm and focused.. if you are emotionally drained and tired? To me.. that makes you more reactionary. If you were telling me about your sweet dreams.. and how much you were smiling.. I would be more likely to believe you.
"It's all about my PMA and my relationship with my son at this point."
Again.. you seem to be missing the point. I thought we were already at that stage.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
