PEI,cat, and Brooklyn - Thank you so much for your input! It continues to help SO much! I look forward to the end of the day and being able to log on and see these perspectives. Today was odd in the fact that several times I teared up - and then there were times when I began to feel angry and fed up with his s--t! I never allow myself to feel those things. So middle D is home for a week and we've been doing some things. S is still angry but I have encouraged him to spend time with his dad. Dad stays around then heads out to his motel - but as we are all talking he refers to me as "honey" and such! WTH??? He, S and I were at an event this evening that was sponsored by my work. As I was introducing H to some people - they were saying "Oh we love her" and "she's so great at what she does" and he just played along. I just wanted to scream - IF YOU ONLY KNEW THE TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HE THINKS ABOUT ME!!! But I held it in and was gracious because at the end of the day - I have to look at myself in the mirror and be okay with how I have handled myself. As always I am so grateful to have found this site and have your voices as lights at the end of this tunnel! Thank you!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
