I feel like i need to contact WAW

[knightinneed]

Yeah, then changes are for me shocked one. I mentioned changes to her on the phone her reply was this " Oh so you can change and get me back and then right back to being a jerk" something to that effect.

These are changes I been needing to make for a long time now, with or without her. I have really found strength in prayer these days. It really calms me down when I get uptight, I close my eyes in the sun and pray. Open my eyes and that wonderful shade of blue as I open them in the sunlight. It makes me feel like someone is listening.

I have been praying alot for God to take away her anger and to guide her so she makes no wrong moves in her life. For god to really fill her heart with forgiveness.

Other changes then weight, is basically a laundry list of stuff that were her complaints. When i was depressed I seen no WAY out. Now that I have my senses back and depression is gone, I am able to think of ways to improve across the board, and if only I had been that way while she was here, I know shed have been much much happier and maybe wouldnt have blown up so much.