Exposed finally,,limbo land

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He is single.
I exposed to her, her BF, her F and MIL, and her Bro, and my family. She is making sure to stay out of canyact with all of them. If she has a free minute, it is spent TM, calling, or going to see OM.
My booting her isn't working to well, I didn't do it forcefully enough, but she is getting a place at end of month.
I plan on getting a direct answer of seperation, or filing, I already know the answer, 95% sure, but I need to hear it from her I guess. Or do I even go there? Do I go dark? I'm a f'ing mess. This frieghttrain she has has no brakes at all. 03/08/10 first TM, 04/02/10 first phone call, mid May first contact? and D 2 weeks later?
So for sounding so weak, I just feel like I'm getting hiy so fast, I can't get my hands up to block anything.