no, his actions have shown not only that he doesn't care, he doesn't love me, he doesn't give a damn.

i no longer care if he is experiencing some sort of depression or some incapcity to show emotion or anything else.

i know he has shown this time and time and time again - but the way he acted over the weekend & yesterday for my bday, that is what completely set me over the edge.

the 3 day notice is posted. today does't count.
if he doesn't leave, then friday i'll be at the court house filing the eviction and getting a hearing date within 3 weeks.

i want him out, i want him gone. i want to cut all contact to him. i do not want to be friends or anything else. i'm finally done. 100%.
and i know the care that i feel for him will fade with time, especially after he moves out.

and i know it's fading because last night, i could have looked at his cell phone (he slept on couch and it was on coffee table) - but i didn't have the desire to.
when he left tonight, i know one of 3 or 4 places he is - i have no desire to call, to follow, to track him down. i just can't and won't do any of it anymore. no more talking, writing to him, etc.

tonight my mom, trying to helpful, said maybe he and i just need a good shouting match to get it all out. i told her, i'm too hoarse to shout (figuratively) and i'm sick of being a broken record.



*hope all is well with you nnp

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.