Quite a night last night when H came home and asked me to check his pulse, and I listened to his heart, and we hit the ER until 2am. All seems ok now, but who sleeps after that? H allowed me to be with him the whole time, he seemed to even appreciate me, and he didn't squirm when people asked how we are related.
I truly believe that H bottles so much up inside that he could easily kill himself with stress while looking calm cool and collected. He makes comments from time to time about money, and that he will never be out of debt, and last night while hooked up to all the machines he fretted how he would pay these bills now?
I am torn what to do, how much to help if at all without jeopardizing my own finances.
H has been initiating PT/intimacy. It concerns me after my surgeries and how my body has changed and what do I do to reciprocate and enjoy? more research.....
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
