On Facebook last week I guess she put on her wall that she finally found herself and that she hopes people will like the new her. (a friend showed me becasue I am not a friend of hers on Facebook) Well as far as I can tell nothing has changed. She lets her family walk all over her and smiles as she says thank you for them doing it. But then she can't be close to me. WTF?
What control do you have over any of that?
Focus on your actions, thoughts and feelings.
I know that I have zero control over that. I was just Ttryibng to figure out her state of mind. Where she is.
I am really at a loss for the whole thing today. Maybe I am just in a bad mood or maybe I am just worn out with all that is going on. I know that today is a day I could really use the closeness we used to have so that I can give her a huge hug and let her know what is going on to get it oput of my head. But I know that is the worst thing I can do. So in the meantime I will continure to sit here and suffer. Put on a big smile when she gets home and act like nothing is wrong just like the last few months. I HATE THIS!!!
