Baby is here. She's sleeping right next to me right now, 5 days old. It was labor on Thursday night and she was born on Friday evening. Everything was pretty good, you know, the regular.
Just brought her in to the pediatrician and she's healthy! She is really cute.
So WH stuff in short:
+ He's been over every day + He just came to the hospital when she was born to see her. Didn't ask me, which was smart, because I probably would have said wait. + He's going to stay at my apt Wed nite and Fri nite to help out. + On the first day at the hospital, he cried a lot. Said he was so sorry to me for treating me so horribly. That I had been so strong and he had been so weak. He said that he was in an identity crisis/mental breakdown. He said the worst is over, but he's still in it. He said he was sooooo mad at me at the beginning, but now is just sorry for what he did. (This does NOT mean that he wants to be 'back' with me; just that he sees what happened now and he is sorry.) Then I said "I don't know what to say" and that basically ended it. + I can tell that he really likes being here. We watched The Office, Keeping Up Appearances, and SNL, oh and Private Chefs of Beverly Hills. We always liked watching good shows together. He said that he missed doing this with me. Oh yeah and he said he missed watching movies with me. He said that he really loves my place and how peaceful it is.
Okay, I'm rambling now. Bottom line is that I don't really know where to go with him, but I have no expectations for our relationship. I do have expectations for his fatherly duties! He showed up LATE for her homecoming. Only came over after I texted him. I was really really upset and he apologized. But I'm still upset about it-- don't be late for her. No way. It's possible that he didn't understand the importance, but he texted me that he would be there at 1. And he wasn't. So that's all that matters.
