Please Help Me

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Yes I agree that I have I was just hoping to find more views and thought this forum was probably the right spot for me. What I have done is worth of being berated, I understand how people could react to the mess I made. I hope that you are right about her not being really done, but I don't know. Just this weekend while I was setting in her parents driveway talking to her, her father, and watching our son ride bicycle she calmly said, "In the next week or two we need to set down and decide how we are going to divide things." I responded with a meek "ok" and her father started crying. I didn't know what to say other than ok, but that sure isn't what I want.

I have been to a few sessions and will continue. She is not interested, says she doesn't need counceling. I am an open book and she has all passwords.

When she says jump, I ask how high. Seriously I am there, maybe there too much (at times I wonder if I'm there too much-who knows what is right)?

Yes I agree, everynight she calls/texts that it is time to come up there and I stay until bedtime. I think it is truely to allow me to spend time with son though, I don't think she really wants to see me. Time feels like my enemy. She has said that when baby is born she wants to be able to D asap. That's why she want to divide things up in the next few weeks, so she can file after the Dr cuts the babies cord. To make matters worse she is due at end of Aug and with our son she was about 1 month early. I'm affraid I only have about a month left. I've been trying to stay patient, but it feels like its sudden death in overtime of the national championship - DAMN THIS MESS I MADE!