Just Journaling

My W texted me late yesterday afternoon,

W: I need to talk to you later. Still have bad feeling about last night.
M: I understand, whenever u like, just let me know. Do you want to grab dinner and talk about it? I know you have class tonight, how about tomorrow?
W: I don't think going out is a good idea.
M: Okay
W: I feel that u took advantage of me. I have a sick feeling in my stomach.
M: I am sorry....do you want to talk after work? (I should have said, "I am sorry you feel that way", Good friend already hit me with the 2X4)
W: I have class. I will call u later

My wife called my son as usual last night at 10pm. I thought that she would want to talk after but never called back nor asked my S to speak with me.

I have heard nothing since....good I guess, who knows what she is thinking. I know I am not supposed to speculate but I couldn't help it, no anguish or anything like that.

It is testimony to how much turmoil the MLCer is in. My W appeared happy, content, at peace Sunday night and then just 6 to 7 hours later the MLC fog is back. I really have compassion for my W in that she has this much confusion going on within her.

I know this much, she has to work this out on her own, on her terms and in her time.


Formerly "missherlove"

Me49 XW49
M17 T19
S16 D20

Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

~Jim Morrison