Ouch!! Mr. McQueen, you're harsh, but it's appreciated.
I canceled our T session. I don't feel good about seeing a psychotherapist who likes to say, "And how does that make you FEEL?"
I would be pefectly content following your advice and just focus on living my life with my kids and my W when she wants to participate. I completely regret every pushing her back into MC. Her silence told me that she didn't want to go, but she went anyway thinking she could bring our M to a close. Now I have killed the T sessions, so I wonder if my W will take it as a relief or frustrating that she won't have the forum to tell me to take a walk.
I am gonna look into a bike with the rikshaw trailer! THAT sounds like fun!!
W has been OK the past few days. We had a nice lively conversation last night at dinner, we laughed a little bit and we became absorbed by conversation about our boys. Like DB says, the conversation ended and I didn't pursue. I found something else to do.
Woke up this morning and came downstairs with a fresh Hugo Boss dark navy suit on, tie, etc. She gave me a look and said, "Meeting today?" (I wear suits to work once every 1-2 months) I knew I looked good, I felt good and I walked out of the house feeling OK.
