Well, I have been a bit burnt out and am getting tired of all of this. That is why I did not post.
Went out to dinner with my family last Wednesday and then to my daughters dance recital. I was cool, yet light and fun. It was nice to be all together and then the next day I was alone and it left me feeling twice as empty. I am really struggling here not being with my two kids. Why would anyone have kids and not want to do everything possible to be a family? We only have one life to live.
To tell you the truth my ex is never coming back ever, no matter what I do. There is no reason for her to do so. She is from a super wealthy family, is beautiful and is as fit as a 19 year old. She has a fantastic job and an ex husband (me) that takes care of the kids.
As she walked out the door 2 years ago she said to me "I don't need you". That sums it all up. She does not need anyone. She has a nanny, a gardner and a maintenance person. Her parents pay for everything on top of her high salary.
I am just burnt out of the whole "dance" and am just trying to concentrate on my kids.
Sorry you caught me on a "down" day.
Me/W: 46/36 D7.6/S6 T/M: 7.5/6.5 Bomb 12/05/07 D final: 03/03/09
