From the end.. spring new beginnings

[Bridgestone]

Thanks to all for the commentary on my considered RPEE.

As the event gets closer the reality of preparing for it on top of a recent move & settling into my new home is starting to seem overwhelming.

I have a 2 weeks to decide before tickets go off sale.

Had a rough night the other night.. phone call from XH and his same old, same old habits while we were trying to get some summer scheduling of the D15 worked out triggered some anxiousness, fear and subsequent lonliness in me.

I miss having someone to cuddle with, someone to just "be" with. I am content on my own... I manage to be alone & find things to occupy my time & mind with no problem.

I miss having priority in someone's life... I miss being 'that kind' of important to a significant other.

I talked to a friend...the feeling passed... and life goes on.

Have a meetup tonight with my wine group. Some new people will be there, looking forward to meeting them...

have softball tomorrow night. One of the men on the team has invited me to watch some harness racing (horses) that his family (mom/dad/brother) do during the summer in the surrounding rural communities.

He was surprised that I knew what harness racing was when it came up for a topic at the watering hole after one of the games. Apparently it's not widely known sport.. guess my growing up years had some odd forms of entertainment.

I may go see the races the week-end... the weather is suppose to beautiful.

Peace
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