I've read and re-read entries from so many broken hearted people in different forums and different stages that it has almost become an obsession. It's the first thing I check in the morning and the first thing I check when I get home from work. I'd check at work if I dared. True, there is a lot of wisdom and support to be found here. It helps to know that we are not all alone in this. IT MAKES ME FURIOUS! I'm trying to hang on to a twenty year marriage and a man that I don't even know anymore. He's off playing bachlor with a girl our son's age. I'm just tryig to stay sane. WHAT'S THE USE? WHY PUT OURSELVES THROUGH THIS CRAP?
Yes, the kids say he looks horrible. Yes, they do get through this and sometimes come home. But why would I want him too? I've pretty much treated him with respect and admiration all our married life, and he has shat in his own nest. Just rambling now, I know, but I am so MAD. Been dark now x 4 weeks and wondering if I even matter to him at all. Trying to stay sane is driving me insane.
Any words of wisdom, or should I just take a Xanax?
