I've had a few too many good days, so this was kind of due.
I think something that triggered everything - apart from my father and "mate"'s advice, is that I'm still friends with her on facebook. A friend of hers tagged her in an album, which went straight to my news feed, or her and a bunch of new mates (an ex boyfriend's work do) going out to an amusement park and having fun.
That was a bitter pill... seeing her happy and oblivious. I know that she's not... I know that she's still thinking about everything, and that she's hurting no matter what decisions she makes... it just. I hate it.
My mind is started to forget where I was, and I really miss large parts of my 'old life'... in particular, the companionship and love of my wife.
I'm glad you've managed to get back on track again - it's odd to see how closely timed out sitch's are. I feel like you're coping a lot better than I am, but then I know I don't see you in the quiet moments.
My only goal today is to keep up with the plans - doctor this afternoon, dancing tonight.
beyond that, I'm at a bit of a loss as to what goals to set.
Me: 29 H: 25 T:7yrs M:5yrs
Bomb: 23/04/10
Had no idea anything was wrong. Cheated so she could end it without talking.
