Oh, sweetie, I just wanted you to know that I'm still keeping up w/ you! I'm so sorry that things are going the way they are right now, but just know that they will get better in time!
I heard some pretty awful things from my H during our D sitch.
I have to tell you that the one thing I wish I could do over from my D sitch is to stand up for myself more. I feel I ended up losing a lot of self-respect in the end even though my M is still intact, at what cost to my soul?
Do you think you should change the locks since he is not staying at the house any longer? I don't think he should be able to just decide what he is going to take & go in there while you are at work & help himself! Please contact your L about this.
We've all made our fair share of mistakes in our M's, girl, but there is nothing you could have done that deserves the treatment he is giving you now. It's verbal abuse & you don't need to listen to it. Listen to CG & just don't respond when he starts up.
You need to find yourself in all of this & be happy w/ yourself. I sold myself out to save my M and will never be able to get that back. Please look deep inside yourself and love you for you and love your kids and just learn to be happy w/ that! Please don't worry about finding anyone else right now. Don't keep telling yourself how lonely you are for a man. You don't NEED a man! Please find yourself and the courage I know you have to get through all of this before you make any decisions about anything else.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
