Point taken, Kat. But it's not like that, not exactly. I may have not expressed this correctly.
I am remarking more than anything at how mundane it all is. And aside from that brief sting I felt at what my mom loses in this, my reaction to xW is getting to be merely matter-of-fact. I don't know if that is good or bad.
My thoughts and feelings about her antics have somehow become like responding to the other "noise" in life -- or it's at least approaching it. I feel resigned to the fact that this is just the way it's going to be with xW, from now on. She's become a constant even in how frequently she wants to throw a monkey-wrench into things, and all her vain attempts to wrest control to herself of anything she can. I am taking this pretty much in stride, like taxes and storm clouds. That's what is now different about it.
I recount this new twist in her drama as just another boring episode in her never-ending series -- but it is the inaneness of it all that I find curious. Paradoxically. Do you know what I mean?
