Went over relationship history from day we met until today. Discovered that we've been in an actual, caring relationship only 11 of the 29 years we've know each other - 3 years before we got married and 8 after. The rest of the time we've functioned in a home base/administrative capacity.
Looking back, it's easy to see how we got to where we are today. All you have to do is follow the path we took.
And to answer the question, "Am I a bad person for thinking about vacations -- and perhaps a life -- without him? The answer is, "No." I've ALREADY spent YEARS without him while he worked 70-80 hours a week and I raised kids by myself! We may have eaten at the same dinner table and slept in the same bed, but our lives outside those two things were often completely separate. EVERYTHING else took priority, which made it easy for him to slip in a third wheel.
Wish I had better foresight than hindsight...<sigh>
Looking forward to my next call later in the week!
