I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

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and the saga continues...

Had a talk with him for over an hour. Got ugly at certain times.

Telling me he has zero regret for having an affair. Any man would have done the same. That he can't stand me, hates me, doesn't like touching me, kissing me, sleeping with me. He can't stand to even look at me. Hopes that one day I can hurt like I hurt him.

After going back and forth he says he had OW change the locks because the worker had taken the money from the lawyer that he wired for the electric bill. So he called her because he knows he can trust her there (this is his apt. overseas).

He denies being with OW that he doesn't want to be with me and I need to get over it. Go find someone else and leave him alone.

Mind you I wasn't needy or anything. He just exploded. I tried to be calm, although I admit there were times where I said things as well.

He said that he hadn't slept with her and kept denying but when I asked what they discussed or why he didn't tell me bbout the worker and the money she supposedly stole, he said it was none of me business and that what he does in his personal life is his business. That we aren't together. He doesn't live with me anymore and that we are only married on paper.

Told me to go f*ck someone else and that he is sure I'll be a little hooker and that I should have been one while when we were married and I would have been able to keep a man (i.e., him).

Denied it being his baby and that she was with someone else and he wasn't with her. He also called me a liar and a user. That I used him and then started in with the scar on his face. (there is no scar.. it was a scratch and it healed long ago)

Said that nothing lasts forever and I should get over with it.

Called me Jekyll and Hyde.

He said he has no money and that now I think I'm better Than him because I'm working and he isn't. And that I made out like a bandit bc I have a roof over my head and a car and have left him with the bills.

I have to pay bills and don't have access to the accounts bc he changed the pw. So I asked him what to do. He said that his bank accounts r none of my business and that its none of my business what money comes in and how he spends it.

At first he was calling me a compulsive liar. That all I do is lie and my convo with the girl was a lie.

It was brutal. I won't lie. But I'm okay. What more can i do.

Caught him lying though. He said he had OW change locks because the worker stole the electric money. And when I asked why he didn't ask the landlord. He said the landlord couldn't do it. (mind u the email from landlord was asking if H had changed the locks because OW tried getting in and couldn't get in) Makes no Mention of him not being able to do it)

He said he had called OW to change them a few weeks ago. Doesn't add up either way though. But he is right. At this Point. It doesn't matter. He Is already gone and checked out of our marriage. he hates me.

In his Mind, he has Already divorced me.

When i asked why he wasn't honest from the getgo With me. He said that i kept bringing [censored] Up to him (Which isn't true I only commented on how closed off He was to me and Had a guard up. He really wasn't trying at all while he was here. I was constantly pussyfooting around him)

*sigh*

Forgot to add that he said that the girl has nothing to do with me and him. That he just doesn't want to be with me. I told him that of course it does because he has feelings for the girl

He said nope. Has Nothing to do with it. That regardless of if there is/was no one else he would still not want to be with me. I told him I didn't buy it but he laughed.