You were sure he wouldn't come home, Mish! And now you're sure that his drinking wine had somethimg to do with the broom! Take some deep breaths here. Lastly, living like this may indeed be too much for you to handle, I know it would be for me! So, you do have to seriously consider whether you can continue this way. It's ultra anxiety provoking and your posts usually show how suspicious and doubtful you are about him and his intentions. This may not be the best way to reconcile. It may be better if he is out of the home and you two date for a while to see if a new R is possible. I think it's way to tough on you the way it is and that is nothing to be ashamed of! Think hard about what you want.
