Re-Connecting

[Fightingforher]

I just called home to check on our son. I talked to my W and asked her if she was feeling any better, when she left lastnight she was pretty upset. She said she wasn't feeling better, she is miserable.

She continues to tell me that she is concerned that I've found some happiness during all of this. I told her that I need to work on myself for me and our son and so that W and I can have a better R after D. She gets angry that I've found this motivation after it's too late for her and I.

I don't have any explanations for my past behavior, I do know that she opened my eyes to all of this. I realize now that I need to be a better person. She continues to struggle with the fact that down the road she is going to be living by herself, finances will be tight, etc....

I'm not sure how to address this other then telling her it will be ok and she will figure it out. I will always be there for our son to help out.

Reading other posts, i'm not 100% sure I should mail in the Petition. I guess me mailig it in doesn't finalize anything but it's almost as if I'm requesting the D now.

Does anyone have any thoughts on this. Previous posts suggested that I start the process????