SA - I also find H's actions "interesting" - if you can call it that. What he does still affects mine and D's life, and no matter how detached we are, they will affect us in practical and emotional ways. I still love the old him, but that's not who he is now. Who knows what the future will bring, but now is now and he is living his life and I'm living mine. Can't live in the past or the future....can only live in the present.
Glam - they are what they are right now, we can't fix them and they don't want to be fixed. They think that they are rational and that they know what they are doing....well we can agree to disagree, but we can't change how they think.
Eric - You are right I will always love the old him, if the "old" H ever shows up again the love will still be there. Yes the letting go is hard, to put it mildly. But I know that this part of our journey has to be lived separately. The key word for me is "lived".
I had a great day yesterday, played tennis in the morning with my new G friend and few other people. After, we went for a coffee and a chat. Boy, is my tennis rusty!!! Hope to improve on that. We will play once a week now.
For the afternoon I had so many house chores planned, but it was such a beautiful day that I was lazing around the pool reading all day. That's the new me...in the old days I would do my chores first and if there was time left I would take it for me. Now Me first lol. Chores could wait. In the evening I went to see a movie by myself...next time I have to take it easy on the popcorn and candy...felt yucky afterwords.
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
