Piecing Without Transparency

[addie]

Hi Andabelle and Ali thanks for stopping by. And Ali thanks for your perspective above.

It's been a long time since I updated. Actually, not much to update. We didn't go to Retro because H never got around to giving me his response and I took that as a "No". We've been pretty much in limbo. Still no transparency, virtually no R talks. H still pursues me when he wants s&x - I'm the one that's distant. The lack of openness is really eating away at me. H has completely shut me out of his "work" life (actually grad student life). I have no idea who the friends are that he's spending so much time with but I figure they're all about 20 years younger than H. Once again he's hanging out with 20 something year olds.

I've gone ahead and made vacation plans. I'll be going to Europe for 3 weeks in July with S13, my sister and mom. I can't wait. It's been one heck of a year (actually 3 years). Can't wait around for H to actually plan vacation time ahead of time because it never happens - it's always been very last minute with him. Sigh...

I've been reading along - I'll try to visit others' threads soon.