embracing change

[Mila]

Hi flow, just catching up with your tread...you have many things happening and many issues to deal with. But you seem to be coping great...you are a strong lady

This caught my attention, because that's exactly how I feel.

Confused about men too. I am still very attracted to H even though I continue to have no hope about our M. I'm finding myself wanting to have flirtation in my life...yet I'm hating the idea of dating or being involved with any kind of courtship rituals

I also seem to have the need to be nurtured by someone...instead of me doing the nurturing.

I'll be honest. It's hard for me to come here and read about beautiful, caring people who want to reconcile with spouses who don't deserve a second (or third or fourth, etc.) chance. Although I still like and love my H, I'm not sure if I'd be willing to overcome my hurt and rejection if it wasn't for the kids. I'm not sure how much of a DBer I consider myself at this point

Those are valid questions, I have days that I think about that as well. Are they worthy of our love?