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I still haven't named the baby.. have another 40 days.. hate WH so much at the moment don't want her to have his name but am very worried about making a life-long decision based on hatred! what do i do? I am so confused !!


for right now do nothing... be grateful that you do not have to make a decision today. I know easier said than done. But i promise it will come to you. Do not make a decision out of anger. try not too... i know that sounds impossible, but you have 40 days to feel comfortable with her last name. No matter which you pick, she will be yours entirely and will always have a part of your H too (sorry). I do still have hope for your sitch and should things turn around, you can always change her name if you choose to name her after you. Just a thought.

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received another email from WH saying how loves OW, and how much he loves the baby.

PUKE (about OW) WOW (about the baby).

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He also told WH he will "fight" for access to see his baby

What is is idea of being a father to the baby? Did you ask him what his ideal situation is? maybe you should? Find out what he wants... pictures? email updates of the baby? If he is not in town, he doesnt have many options and especially in the beginning you have control over the situation.

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I hate him, people, I hate him.

I am really feeling stuffed tonight... I feel so TRAPPED.


(((Big Hugs))) You are allowed to hate him and feel angry. just please take care of yourself and do something good for yourself... I hate that you are going through this and feeling this way frown