vacation has gone pretty good we walked on the beach last night holding hands and talking about moving in a year when im done w school! hes also told me he loves me several times this which has not happened in a long time! things r really starting to feel a little more normal but im not getting to excited yet. we r suppose to go for a walk on the beach again before we leave hope so, im actually a little nervous about it. we have not been very physical for about ten months, mostly my fault i just start thinking about the affair and its over. i know i need to let it go and just go w the flow!!! i just wonder if he was walking on the beach thinking about ow makes me sick.
