Today I have a day with absolutely no plans. I find those days hard because there is this voice in my head that says "so this is your life now, sitting around your apartment doing piss all" Since I separated I've pushed myself hard to be involved in things, stay active, don't sit around. Probably too much so, even with the Adrenal Fatigue I never missed a day of work or an activity. Most likely, I've driven myself way too hard. I was so anxious about building a new life, staying social and avoiding depression! I can remember a few tears ago when having a day with no plans was something to look forward to rather than a source of anxiety! So today I'm gonna turn that voice off, maybe do some reading, do some sketching, nap, later do some Yoga and watch a movie in the evening with the kids. The weather here is cold and rainy so going out is not much of an option. Last night I went for a walk in the park as it was cool but still a nice night. Today, I'll get off my back and try to enjoy the nothingness of each the moment My kids don't seem to have any problem doing nothing!
My kids don't seem to have any problem doing nothing!
