2 weeks left to DB

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Hey guys, thanks.
NM, I'd like to hear more about your SIL's caustic behaviour. What sort of stuff did she say and do? How long was he gone for and was OW involved?

Today my step-father met up with WH to have words. Sort of went over old territory so not much worth reporting here.

But H did say he has 'borrowed' money and heading back to Europe for 3 job interviews and to see OW at the end of this month. Then he is coming back for when his mother arrives (why, i don't know since he has told her he wont be taking care of her), and then going back to Europe again a few months later. I am very suss about all this money. we're talking 2 x 2000 dollars on airfares here! Let alone shipping all his crap which will be several thousand more. and i've only received a one off 500 dollar payment from him!!

I also found out he has seen a lawyer and knows the 70-30 division of assets rule when there is a baby involved. He won't be giving me the apartment in full. He told step-father, "I won't be left destitute".( What's he frickin talking about? He won't have to pay rent with OW cos her parents own the flat she lives in.)

I still haven't named the baby.. have another 40 days.. hate WH so much at the moment don't want her to have his name but am very worried about making a life-long decision based on hatred! what do i do? I am so confused !!


I am just feeling so drained..received another email from WH saying how loves OW, and how much he loves the baby. How we have "years!" to resolve our issues and 'differences'. He also told WH he will "fight" for access to see his baby (WHAT A TURNAROUND FROM A FEW MONTHS AGO WHEN HE SAID HE WOULD FIGHT ME ON NOTHING.
HOW THEY CHANGE ONCE THE BABY ARRIVES and they biond!!!)
I was happy for him to bond if he was going to stay here and co-parent with me. How can I be happy if he has bonded and yet he is going to live o/seas & not help me at all (except financially, he says) and want to just DROP IN and see her once a year, and want me to take photos of her and send them to him, etc?????

His signs of with this:
"I will miss my beautiful daughter very much, and I am already wearing the pain of being apart from her ...
But I also know that me being an incomplete and regret-ridden man will not make me a good father to her".

So, off with the guilt he says, and to the life i want!!

I hate him, people, I hate him.

I am really feeling stuffed tonight... I feel so TRAPPED.