Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

DLS,

I am trying not listen to her, but part of me is starting to believe her these days. I don't know. My mind is pretty messed up today with everything I have had to do. I don't feel good about it at all even if I had to do it. It is not me to hurt anyone even when I have been hurt.

I do have confidence I am capable of doing any job and doing it well. I am worried about the other interview because they asked me if there is anything in my life that will affect me being focused on the job. Well I did not tell them with the divorce I will have mediation and hearings. I mean what was I suppose to say. I need the work. What I am suppose to say when if I am hired. It just sucks now because I don't want to lose any job I desparately need. It will just validate to her and to me some extent of what she is saying is true.

I am trying to look forward and having been doing better, but I feel this week I have slipped a little.