Mish, I had a bad habit/tendency to always laugh at Dan at the worst possible times. Sorry my sense of humor is just weird! For example once he was trying to show off how well he could make pork cutlets frying them in an electric skillet. Well smart guy was cooking shirtless, and he casually flops the cutlets in the skillet. Needless to say hot grease came flying out, got his side and a bunch of fingers on one hand. He was howling in pain and dancing up and down in the kitchen.
He was seriously hurt (for real, we wound up at the ER and he had to go to a plastic surgeon to keep from having permanent damage on a couple fingers) and I laughed my a$$ off at him bc the sight was so funny! He got super angry bc I laughed at his pain. But I didn't mean it like that...
Anyway long way of saying, try not to get to embarrassed/hurt. I am sure he was laughing at the visual of you toppling over during what was supposed to be a romantic/sexy moment. Not laughing at your overture.
And his actions so far seem pretty great to me...it's been two years here girl! But seriously, he clearly is there for more than the physical stuff. Glad you are finding him to be a partner again, try to appreciate the positives and gain confidence from them.
Marc has become quite a typical, social teenager. For those of you who know about him, you must realize what an accomplishment that is.
He has friends he hangs out with, goes to their houses, goes to movies with them, bikes, swims, runs, plays air-soft. He's quite an active guy and I couldn't be happier! He is adjusting so well and he rolls with the punches of his homelife better than any kid I've ever known.
Gabe is working 7 days a week until 10pm most nights. Since I work all week and have mom stuff to deal with on Saturday mornings and afternoon and church on Sunday morning it's impossible for us to spend any time together. I'm being creative with the little bit of time we have but it's tough.
Trying to plan a girl's night but my BFF is on this crazy HGH diet that is working well for her but she's not living either. She is afraid to go out anywhere because she can't eat or drink anything. It's really too danged hot to go bike riding together and watching movies at home usually leads to wine and chocolate. I don't need any of that either, but I'm powerless to resist!!!! I'm going to call her and see what she thinks about lazing in the pool (she has one!) together and chatting with NO access to food. Hmmmm.....sounds like a plan to me!
Y'all have a great night and a good weekend!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
I had a shock to my system today and I'm not sure what I'm doing now.
Gabe had texted me and asked me what I was doing (he was at work), I told him and he told me to drop by there on my way to the store. I told him I was already there but I would drop by on my way home. I pulled up in front of the store where he works and nearly threw up right then. Parked in front was the broom's car. I nearly turned around and left but decided I wasn't going to run away. I saw her come out of the store with her son and some fountain drinks in their hands. I was parked right next to her and she looked toward me but didn't acknowledge that she saw me. She got in and left. I went into the store but Gabe was talking to a guy he knows that had stopped by and my emotions were roiling. I said hello and then left within a couple of minutes. I couldn't stand there and pretend I hadn't seen her. It was all over my face and my heart was in my throat. Bad, bad, bad memories, horrible feelings of inadequacy, worthlessness, and betrayal swept over me and I had to just get out of there.
I told Gabe that I had quite a shock and he said he didn't know she was coming by. I asked him why she would and he just said she was with her kid and they came in to get something to drink. I was honest, told him that I'm not blaming him for her being there but it didn't make it any less of a shock. She knows he works there and there are numerous other gas stations she could have stopped at for a drink so she obviously wanted to see him. His response was that I need to get over it and move on. His exact words were, "If you want to try to move on, you gotta try to not get all bent out of shape like today. I've told you before it was my fault I went looking. I liked to her to be with her. I appreciate you letting me in and I've enjoyed being there with you and helping how I can, but I can't go on if you can't move on too."
Now he's going out for a few drinks with the guy he was talking to. I'm trusting that he really is and isn't meeting her. I'm trying so hard not to think that. I'm so freaking pissed at myself. I'm so broken and needy that I've latched onto him like a darned barnacle on the bottom of a ship. I deserve what I'm getting. How stupid of me and my foolish heart.
He says he won't be home for dinner and not to save anything for him. He likely won't be back.
Why did I do this to myself? Why couldn't I just suck it up and shut up? Why did seeing her set me off? Of course if I ran into her in some random place it would have irked me but to see her coming out of his place of work (where he is the ONLY employee) was too much for me.
The pain is too much for me. I'm better off alone.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Werent you guys all in my face about not jumping to conclusions?? Hon step back. He didn't say that he wasn't coming back. I know how easy it is to let your emotions to get the better of you, just a week ago for me remember?
You are going to be fine.
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I'll be fine. I know him. This is going to be the final straw. I reacted to seeing her coming out of his work where she really didn't have any need to be except to see him and that set me off. Oh yeah, now he's re-friended her on FB too. GAG!!!!
I can't take it. Really, I can't. He can't either. I don't blame him. I'm a total mess obviously and am better off on my own with no one else to worry about getting their feelings hurt by mine.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
She MAY have been there to see him. Of she just happened to choose that gas station. There could be others, but that doesn't mean it was purposeful.
Here is what seems to be to be the positive point. Clearly, he was not expecting her to be there. He certainly wouldn't have asked you to stop by if he was expecting her. I also think that the fact he was already talking to his friend when you got in suggests he either didn't talk with her, or didn't talk with her alone.
It sounds like it may be much more her than him trying to meet. And for now it is going to be hard for either of you to control what she does. Can you get to a place where you can accept that she could force that type of situation, even if he doesn't like it? At some point, you will need to trust him.
