Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

Does anyone else have any thoughts about whether I should serve her at work or at home the motions.

I just want to have the most impact one way or another.

[Steve McQueen]

why do "want to have the most impact"

what will you gain from that?

[LSG]

Steve,

I just want to make my M last. I don't what I would gain from that.

I know the M is over, and I do not know what else to do to save it.

I really don't know at all.

[DaddyLongShanks]

If it was office affair, I say serve the papers at the office.

[LSG]

DLS,

I don't know. I guess it would just be me pushing the M further in the dump than it is if I did that.

I am very emotional at the moment because all the moves I have to make are just one step closer to us being divorced. I really do miss the woman I married so much. I wish I could move on, but I don't seem to be able to do that. I feel awful today and have shed some tears over her.

I do not want to feel this way, and I wish I could stop.

[TimeHeals]

I do not want to feel this way, and I wish I could stop.

Then stop fighting it. It's alright to feel how you feel.

Just don't act on your feelings. Your actions should be something you plan or do when you are clear and calm, not when you are feeling overwhelmed by strong emotions.

[DaddyLongShanks]

DLS,

I don't know. I guess it would just be me pushing the M further in the dump than it is if I did that.

I am very emotional at the moment because all the moves I have to make are just one step closer to us being divorced. I really do miss the woman I married so much. I wish I could move on, but I don't seem to be able to do that. I feel awful today and have shed some tears over her.

I do not want to feel this way, and I wish I could stop.

Thing about it, she's not "her" as in what you knew. I just got off the phone with my wayward b-i-t-c-h, and she was sounding like she's angry at me for being in an abusive situation and being forced to respond to her on occasions.

Now I was just looking at a log of her instant message, and she was worred about loosing OM at the time back in 2007. She was worried if we move she would lose OM, but her buddy confided in her that she could find someone else. She wanted to stay.

Do what your supposed to do here, I'm not sure feelings from the past gain us any points. I'm a bachelor, and if I don't look at it like that it makes me crazy or depressed.

[LSG]

DLS,

I just hate this whole situation.

Not much I can do about it at this point I guess.

[DaddyLongShanks]

Are these women in the same "sorority" or something? Are we part of some wholesale situation, like a government thing? Sometimes I wonder because they all sound the same to me.

[LSG]

In the last argument we had, she said, "I was not even a good husband." I told her I guess a good husband cheats. Aside from having no job, I have been very good to ther and our family. I hear these words over and over in my head, and it is messing with how I feel about myself. Every turned down job is just like a needle in the heart.

It really hurts a person's self-esteem.