WAW Using God II

[pigskin]

Journaling:

W leaves for 4 days on Saturday to "visit a friend". She has not said who, or where she is going. I just know that she is taking a flight somewhere. Usually when she says nothing about what she's doing it is something she knows I wouldn't approve of. Normally she'd be sending me her itinerary so I know where she is in case of a kids' emergency.

Today I got an email from one of her church's pastors saying they were setting up a meeting with the OM on Wednesday. I'm guessing he is unavailable Monday and Tuesday because he will be on vacation with my W. I have no proof of this, just speculation on my part. I could be wrong and often am, just seems strange.

At this point, I just get angry at the disrespect and hypocrisy. I'm moving forward with the dissolution process, but I just shake my head at how two married people could behave like that. Just file for divorce and THEN have your fling.

The kicker is their supposed devotion to Christ; I think that's what really gets me. If they had no interest in God or religion I think I would find it a lot less irritating. I would even expect it. But an affair is as un-Christian as it gets, and involving the kids in it is just plain evil.

I struggle with the human nature of wanting revenge in some fashion. I think this emotion comes into play when the situation appears to be a lost cause. It seems almost as difficult as the initial anger over the betrayal during the first phase of the ordeal.

I called the pastor after getting his email. He said the church has to walk a fine line between loving the sinners and delivering the message that the sin is not condoned. But he said for the church to sit back and do nothing while the two of them hang out there would send the message that the behavior is condoned. I'm guessing they'll be booted. The pastor stands firmly with me. I told him I've started the dissolution process, and he agreed that it was the right thing to do at this point.