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i'm hoping that anything else that comes this way, i will handle it the same way.


One of my mantras that I developed when I was seperated is: I can handle it. How you talk to yourself matters.

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i did something small today. bought a stranger coffee.
she didn't have the proper change.


That's goodness.

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i raised my voice. again.
i think when i raise my voice, i can be quite threatening.
i have never raised my voice until now.


Don't stuff emotions. Didn't work for me either.

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my anger scares me.
this is a side of me that i have never seen.
nobody has ever been able to make me so angry.


Anger is a emotion it's OK to feel like that. How you react is the key. Look up Steven Stosny and go to his site: compassionpower.com.


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i skipped squash yesterday.
went to visit a friend. she called me and wondered if i was okay. she was worried that i was sitting around at home or that something had happened to me.

today, i need to do some grocery shopping.
maybe catch up on some tv time.
might even drop by the squash club for a pick up game.
if not, then i will likely do my nails or pamper myself with a facial


Keep taking care of yourself.

You can handle it.

Cheers


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.