You are doing a great job! And the only thing you can do is take it a day at a time! This whole process is not an easy one! My H and I are still together, and I still am a day at a time, there is so much work involved in getting the marriage back on track, it never stops! My H never left physically, but mentally he did...and when there is an ow it really puts a different spin on things!
I think you have say to really try and not focus on your H or marriage right now, it is what it is, and you can't do much, so focus on you, staying well and healthy and if your h is there great and if not, oh well! I know its easier said then done, believe me!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!