WAH and LBW separated and dark

[DumpedforMIL]

How did it feel knocking on the door? Were you scared? What were you going to say if he opened the door?

i was nervous. and was probably happy that he didn't answer the door. i had a good excuse to go up in person.

but i honestly don't think i can do it anymore.
he might call security and say that i'm harassing him.

Do "Work" and we won't have to worry about that. Now.. if you buy a house.. find a new boyfriend.. then we will have to worry.

no mention of having a baby.

on a serious note, i want to buy the house though. regardless of everything, the house is on the top of the list.

Protect.. what you have.

Prepare.. for what is coming.

you make it sound like it's going to get worse.
how wonderful.

when he didn't answer the door, i didn't freak out.
i'm hoping that anything else that comes this way, i will handle it the same way.

"oh my. is this like your batting cage thing?"

You tell me.

yes, it is.
i went back to your post to me where you talked about going to the batting cage and the reason why you went there.
and i'm doing the same with squash.
it doesn't matter that my feet hurt or my toe nail is purple. i'll go as long as my body will take it.
the good thing is, i leave feeling good so i always have a smile on my face.

Seems like you got it and retained it to memory. Talk about it. (post on what you did)

i did something small today. bought a stranger coffee.
she didn't have the proper change.

How was IC?

not sure.
i raised my voice. again.
i think when i raise my voice, i can be quite threatening.
i have never raised my voice until now.
i surprised myself.

anyway, my ic would like me to go to my family doctor.
she says my doctor needs to know what's going on with me.
she also believes that i may need more intensive therapy than what she is providing me.

my anger scares me.
this is a side of me that i have never seen.
nobody has ever been able to make me so angry.

What did you do yesterday?

What are you going to do today?

i skipped squash yesterday.
went to visit a friend. she called me and wondered if i was okay. she was worried that i was sitting around at home or that something had happened to me.

today, i need to do some grocery shopping.
maybe catch up on some tv time.
might even drop by the squash club for a pick up game.
if not, then i will likely do my nails or pamper myself with a facial.