I feel like i need to contact WAW

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have probably caused myself this emotional distress by not detaching and ignoring things.

It's alright to have the feelings you are having. You do not act on your feelings however. That is strength. When you are calm, you make plans, you act on plans and when your thinking is clear.

When you feel strong emotions, you just feel them. Don't act on them for your own good.

I just wish I had the strength of some on this board,

We are all weak sometimes. You don't become strong without having been weak and learning from it.

I don't know if you are a religous person at all, but Judeo/Christian/Islam promote the idea that sometimes God tests us in order to strengthen us. In other words, the things that really test us emotionally can make us stronger, so they can actually be a gift.

By stronger, I don't mean harder or more cynical. I mean more open, empathetic, and yet having more self-control.