I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

Alot of old friends are encouraging me to go to church. I'm not ready yet.

If God himself showed up at your door and said, "Please go to church." Would you go?

Because I have news for you. He just did. Via your old friends. Listen to Him.

1) I don't know. The first thing I would do is try to get as many answers to my questions as possible. LOL

I'm not ready for church yet. I'm just not.

Well I've went on a few more "dates" and they help take my mind off the sitch but it's nothing special.

I've spent some time with s10 playing video games and just having fun.

haven't seen or talked to s3 or WAW. waw has been N.C. for over a month now. She will probably not say anything again.

My cellphone is now off. Cannot afford the bill right now. I'm just trying not to think about this entire situation and get depressed

[TimeHeals]

I'm just trying not to think about this entire situation and get depressed

That's a lot easier for me to do when I focus on what I can do to improve the things in my life right now.

And I mean... the things and people around me. Heck just getting this house back in shape after months of two people in limboland not taking care of it is a lot to do.

[james217]

I'm just trying not to think about this entire situation and get depressed

That's a lot easier for me to do when I focus on what I can do to improve the things in my life right now.

And I mean... the things and people around me. Heck just getting this house back in shape after months of two people in limboland not taking care of it is a lot to do.

well in a week or so im about to be busy with doctors appointments and whatnot. i stay busy. i've pretty much stopped being really emotional and crying and all that crap.

so im in better shape. just still have the highs and lows

just wish it didn't have to be like this. it really saddens me

[james217]

well nothing really new to add. just been trying to walk a little bit. I have appt with the neurologist on thursday. Just taking it one day at a time.

i've been over a month and me and WAW have not had any contact whatsoever

i've been spending time with s10. I'm trying to hang in there.

I'm still shellshocked and down about this but i'm trying to cope

[knightinneed]

James prayer has really really helped me as of late. I been going out in the sun at work when I feel down, and I pray.

I pray for clarity, guidance, and for WAW and DD1. I pray that God guide us according to his plan, and also for a healed marriage.

It really makes me feel alot better, also exercise has been real helpful too.

I am in the same boat for sure with my WAW.

Lots of luck to you James I will pray for you.

[washerebefore]

james, I'm so glad you're having the specialists appt.....I'll be watching to see how it goes. How is your diabetes? Please make a point of asking about it, i would think they would check it out but who knows. It is such a detrimental condition for all body systems...if you can get a handle on how to manage it, it could make a huge difference in many ways for you emotionally mentally and physically.

Good for you on the exercise.

hang in there...

[washerebefore]

James, are you around? I was thinking of you and wondering how you are doing....

[james217]

been a min since i've posted. alot of good news. I found out i'm totally disease free. thank god.

I have totally put my relationship in the past. I haven't seen or talked to her.

still haven't had the surgery but I go see the neurologist at the end of the month. surgery in october probably.

I have a new relationship with an amazing woman. I've never been happier. ILl add more to my thread later.

There is light at the end of the tunnel with the same person or someone else.

[DanF]

Glad to hear it James. I'm about where you were last spring and it is heartening to hear about amazing new relationships and never being happiers. I just seems like it will never get here. I am worried about how to meet someone new.

Congratulations on your new life. I really hope it lives up to your wildest dreams.

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Glad to hear you are doing well, James, medically and emotionally!

Puppy