2 weeks left to DB

[Piano]

That's the tricky thing - mourning and separating and looking after a new born all the in the one go!

I really dislike who my WH is right now. He seems to have no morals. Or he was so unhappy with me that he is prepared to walk and leave all of this behind.

Since he met the baby, he's become more insistent on being part of her life - of 'claiming' her, despite the fact he is going to leave me to parent her alone while he canoodles in Europe with OW.

It's all such a mindf*%$.

He is pushing the barrow of separating from me even more so than before.

I feel like a FOOL for giving him all these second chances and for wishful thinking. I'm not sure it's all due to OW alone.. I think so many factors involved.

I think he will feel bad when he is gone, but only if I am handling the separation with grace (which I am not) cos otherwise he'll just be thinking how great it is to have left crazy ex-wide and how nice, younger (only by 5 years) other woman is.

HOW do I separate in a civil and friendly way when I feel I am being abused???