Got home this morning. Interesting talk with my W, who was staying in the house while I was gone. Tears started immediately, lamenting the death of of marriage, details about my 5 year old PA, and so on. Good conversation, however. she spent much of the last 3 weeks overmedicated and listless, but now has a handle on the med level.
Interesting she called the OM within 5 minutes of leaving the house.
W wants to talk to me, likes to talk to me, felt good about sitting with me this morning. However, she cannot handle the emotional anxiety of seeing me all day, so is moving into a cheap hotel for the next five days until she leaves on a trip.
I am trying to be detached, and trying to be there for her at the same time. She wants to spend time together in the next 5 days, just doesn't want to see me 24/7. She wants to have b'fast, dinner, other things.
Her IC tells her most women in her sitch are angry and stoic. She is weepy, sad, confused, hurting. (yeah, I thought, I can understand THAT from my POV)
I don't know what to believe: a woman conflicted over wanting a D with the loss of friends, family, etc., or a deceiptful spouse who is emotionally tied up with married OM, and is leaning on him hard core for support. The former suggests I be patient, the latter suggests I should kick her out and move on immmediately.
We see a L for mediation tomorrow, and I sign the joint agreement to D. Saw my L today, who tells me there is no legal reason not to sign jointly. So the process starts tomorrow.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012