maybe the people you are choosing for a relationship are not ready for the mature type of relationship you need
because there is a give and take that seems to sometimes be missing
like when you are all pulling away and getting weirdo, you need someone to smack you into reality
it is the give and take of a healthy, thriving relationship
maybe you enter into ones with people you know are not ready because it saves you from having to deal and it puts you in a comfortable place, one you know...of feeling betrayed or feeling like you are lacking or self-doubt or whatever
you know the place where you KNOW that you will feel xyz and get over it
it is hard work and scary and thrilling and exciting and fulfilling and new and wonderful and magic and all those things too
like ok you know I am a but pitbullish and Cori is a mushball
we balance eachother
and he says stuff to me like (I was just telling lissie this) when I am all upset that I am not more mushball because I never remember "important"days and what is wrong with me and blah blah blah
he tells me...I fell for a pitbull...I don't want a kitten
so
he makes me feel good about who I am not like I am lacking something
so you need to find the person who loves you when you get all "needing alone time" and Ian-ish. Someone who will just be loving and appreciating those parts of you that make you feel insecure
