It is no problem. It is very different since I am everything to S, and I see that more and more. I have to be mom and dad because now H doesn't think he can be or wants to be...i don't know. I don't want him to miss out on extended family because his dad and I are not getting along. I promised the in-laws i would make sure they are a part of S's life. I am not going over there every week like they want, but they get to see him often enough.
Today no word from H...surprise, surprise. I am really going to try to just let it go. I don't know what yesterday was and I am sure it will happen again. At some point, I really have to tell him to leave me alone because S today has really had a rough day and a rough night last night. Very clingy...maybe sad about daddy maybe not, I just don't know since he doesn't understand his feelings yet.
Today we hung out. Played some baseball. Then went on a bike ride, about 1 mile. Nothing major, but it was a lot for my first longer bike ride pulling a big for his age 2.5 year old. I can't believe that by the end of summer I will be planning his party and he will be 3.
Tomorrow is H's birthday so I will see if he shows up or not...
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