LOL, Poe, that's good! I picked the screen name at the beginning of all this because I was so incredulous that this could happen to me. The one with the "perfect" marriage. I've done a lot of sole searching, praying and changing since then. I GAL; had to since I experienced the death of my mother(the only close extended family), sent the last child to college,sent mentally ill son out of the house, and lost the H within 2 months. Yeah, I know poor pitiful me.
I have lost 35 lbs, at 5' and joined a gym I attend at least 3x's a week. Joined a new neighbors group with tons of activities and attend as many as I can get to. I've also done some serious 180's on some dependence issues. Girlfriends have been kind, but one problem is they are tiring of the lingering and are all married, most with kids still at home. Why not just D they ask? You deserve better. So I turn here for people that understand why I don't just get a D.
MLC? Most definitely see it looking back. He longs for the football hero days with girls falling at his feet. He is living a frat brother existence with cards and alcohol many nights. He is a replay king right now with depression of varying degrees. I earlier saw the anger of life denied; most of that seems to be gone.
Yes, I do focus on saving the marriage, but I'm here because I can no longer live with this constant lost out of breath feeling in my chest. So poke and prod, I'm just looking for a few wiser and more experienced than I to help me find a path out of all this, preferably with my sanity even if he has lost his.
