NM, when H left he initially said he felt like we were on two different paths... him with school, me with work. Said he missed us, spending time with one another, and felt like he put school first and not me and now it made him feel distant.
I agreed, but not enough to be separated. We still ate dinner every night together, talked on the phone 15x a day, spent our weekends together, watched tv together... we were always together. I think it was easier for him to leave than want to work on things. Now that school is over, clinical still going strong, and still studying for boards, he seems more relaxed.
I was bad today, and told him he was using me for my "wonderfulness"
i said its a shame that we you cant see are meant to be! (I know... 2x4s). i said imagine how great it could be if we started from scratch, you could ask me on a date, and if you didnt like me or want to see me again, you dont have to ask me back out. He replied with, ok... tomorrow night we'll go finalize the order at the furniture store for the baby, and go do another thing for the house and that's a date. and he laughed...
Float Float Float... (i did however do a few leaps) but i have to control my mouth and my thoughts and just FLOAT!!!!!!!!!!!!
