Truth be told I was hoping that you did not bake them and go knocking on his door.
but everyone gave me crap for not doing it. i'm confused.
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I kinda think that squash is an expensive sport. We don't want to loose the one thing that seems to be filling the void.
oh i know what you mean. i fear the novelty will wear off and then what is there to fill the void. and yes, it's a pretty expensive sport.
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Work is important. I am glad they still think you are worth it.
when i'm focused at work, i'm really good at what i do. when the d-bomb was dropped, i started my new job. i almost quit after three days because i was an emotional wreck. my manager understood if i wanted to quit. but i ended up staying. i have established a good reputation in the city and i can't tarnish it by leaving in the middle of contracts.
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So.. your "hands" hurt?
Do you have the look of pain yet?
not yet. i didn't care about the purple toe. i went and played anyway. i played on and off for 3 hrs. my legs muscles are a bit sore though. despite that, i always leave squash feeling really good. i don't get the same rush when i do yoga.
oh my. is this like your batting cage thing?
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I want you seeking out people that are not warm and friendly. It is easy when you are in a "social" setting. I want you interacting with "everyday" people. I want you to do something.. just because you can. I want to show you the difference in your "actions" and your "emotion's".
ok. i will try that. don't worry, i'll only remember the first half of that paragraph - seek out people and make a positive impact to their lives. then after i've done it, i'll come back and read the second half of that paragraph to see if i could see the difference.
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Time is not a concern here. Your anger is.
i am concerned about the anger. i have an ic session tomorrow. i will need to bring this up again. the regular squash nights help. i understand why you told me not to talk about all that. talking about it makes me re-live the sitch and keeps the wound fresh.
if i don't control the anger soon, then d-day will come and i will not have made any progress.
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Keep it up.. even if it is fake.. I like where we are going.
so far so good.
even though i come home late from squash, i still find the time to make dinner. i don't pull out a tv dinner to microwave. i made montreal spiced chicken breast (baked), stir fried broccoli & red peppers, and steamed rice.
always a protein, veggies, and a starch. i want to gain some weight back. with all the squash that i'm playing, i am doing what i can to eat right.
