Thanks, I like to think I am doing well. I kind of feel like I woke up from a weird dream this evening or something. I am trying to figure out how I have been doing so much w/Dan after all the crap he has pulled on me. The idea that we have sent upbeat/teasing texts back and forth, hung out so much with the kids and everything, for some reason suddenly that stuff just does not make sense to me.
I like to think I was trying to be the bigger person, and doing what I could to salvage a decent relationship for the sake of the kids. However really I know there was also an element of 'show him the great BBJ and he will want back in' going on some of the time.
Anyway that is behind me. I don't want to go out and make his life miserable or anything. Truly I am one of the lucky ones going through this bc at least in my case, I don't have to sell the family home or anything. I get to keep my house, my lifestyle hasn't really changed all that much, in fact I have much less debt than I had when we were married. I have less income too, but it doesn't seem like it bc so much of 'our' money went to cattle, Dan's social life, and his attempts to have the newest and best everything to impress other people.
Anyway just kind of strange that these layers are slowly peeling back. Will have to make sure I don't backslide once he gets back in town from his trip.
