Honestly MrBond you have made me feel so much better! When I think about this craziness I just have to shake my head. I love him, but I also know that I'm totally ok on my own too.
I've wronged him, I will never deny that and I have so much to learn from this experience - I just can't wrap my head around trying to force something he just doesn't want.
We truly did have a good partnership that went off the rails simply because of lack of communication (I talk (a lot) and he never says a word about what bothers him).
There is no EA, PA, alcohol problems, or anything of that sort in our relationship. These things were totally fixable and he chose the easy way out. I get that he was "done" but he also made me a promise that we'd stick together through thick and thin. How do you get over that?
It's really hard to respect that after leaving me for a week and a half with kids/job/animals/stress and he's at his moms with her doing everything for him. When my D2 is there - his mom is the one who looks after her while he sits there. I've never known my H to be like this but I do hope he finds the happiness he is looking for and truly deserves. I wish he would have given me a chance to show him that I could give him what he was missing but he chose to keep that to himself and end our relationship without consulting me.
Am I in anger stage? I don't feel angry - I just feel exhausted that I've wasted a week and 1/2 over this and in a couple hours of posting have a brand new perspective....
