Another point QS, you seem interested in the education...
The emotions in you right now that you can't control... Shirley Glass refers to these as "Post Traumatic Shock"
You are going to feel very out of sorts for the next while until this blows over... you will be calm and collected one day and an emotional mess the next
nightmares, headaches, shaky hands, etc... its all part of the ride...
Read read read and you will understand... and where there's understanding, there's manageability
