forgingon,

You're still really early in your sitch so don't worry if you feel like you're going crazy. We were all in your shoes.

Sorry if I missed it, but did you ever read DR or DB? It'll make more sense when you read those books.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER