Had a little setback yesterday. I was awarded a government contract and also won a position on a prominent business Board of Directors all yesterday. Although those were great pieces of news, I felt a wave of sadness come over me because I felt I didn't have my W to share that happiness with me. And then it triggered the past events when my W's OM would be awarded for something and she would go out and get him something nice but she barely acknowledged my accomplishments.

SOOOO guess who decides to call when I'm going through all this in my head? Yep the W. So the first thing she does is ask for something. This was always something that bugged the hell out of me. Since this stuff started, all she does is call if she wants something. I don't always say yes and it still sticks in my craw.

So I ask her how her work was and she said 'okay' and started detailing it a little. Then she asked me how my day was. And that opened the frickin' floodgates. I pretty much told her what was bothering me and she just listened. At the end I said I had to go and ended the call.

Later last night, she called to see how the kids were and I wished her a good night. Blah.

Then this morning, my MIL comes in to watch the kids and I'm asking her how she's doing, etc. She doesn't even turn to look in my direction or acknowledges me. WTF? Now I know why my W is so messed up. If that's who she's modeling herself after I can see why she acts the way she does. So I was debating whether or not to say something, but decided not to. I mean this woman is going to forever be my kids' grandmother and she acts like I'm beneath her. No I take that back. She doesn't know how to react and so she shuts down from uncomfortable situations EXACTLY like my W.

Ok vent time is over. Back to your regularly scheduled programming.


M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER