I feel like i need to contact WAW

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I know you sent out a call for Coach, but I'm chiming in, too.

I know it was a crucial error, but

That right there is going to EAT YOUR LUNCH! The "but" is keeping you from making better moves, and that is ALL YOU - all your choices. Cut that out.

ill be honest I seen something on her face book profile that was a big dagger to my heart. She posted a pic of her with her bosses son (possible OM) behind her not really a hugging pic or anything like that. Her mutual friend said that there is no relationship that they are just friends, but who knows as I cannot confirm nor deny this.

Can you change ANY of that? Did the action you took make ANY difference in what is on FB?

That is what prompted my foolishness as i lost control and also my marbles. She knows that would set me off, and maybe thats what she wanted?

Oliver Stone thinking. Conspiracy. Trying to assign motives is not going to get you anywhere.

I am making all the changes I need to make for me, but the no contact is killing me, because I feel like it will allow her time to develop feelings for possible OM, unless it may just be her sending a message to me, because she is vindictive right now.

You only have control over yourself (supposedly ) Quit worrying about what she is doing, why she is doing it, what she may do...

I am hoping that if I pursue full custody and tell her I want to work on the marriage, and not going to mediation she may come around, and well If she does not I will pursue it anyway.

Do what is best for your child b/c that is the kind of father you are...not b/c it MIGHT make your W think or do something.

Maybe the reality of her losing DD1 will wake her up, and also allow her to see my changes. I have literally changed so many things she did not like, and feel if she could just see them it would make a difference.

She is not asleep. She is making choices. You have some to make, too.
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